What happened ? What seriously happened ? Ugh , I may be the cause of it all . I seriously dont care , I am so sick of all this fighting and backstabbing . It's not fun anymore , it's just getting boring and really really annoying . What happened to the twelve of us ? We used to be so together and now we are all crumbling into pieces . Or maybe , we won't even together before , it was just something i had conjure up in my mind , something that i thought existed. I thought after being through so much together , the final 12 would be somewhat like a family . A place where that I could turn to for help , people that never fails to brighten up my day . But now , I am even scared to just face anyone . It's like you never know who is going to be going up against you with a knife at the next instant . Do we really want to continue going on this way ? Just think of all that we had gone through , is it worth just throwing it all away because of that little selfishness in you ? I know I was not much of a help in this by bitching and taking sides , but at least now I am trying . I dont want it to end this way , I dont want to let something which i treasured so much to just go away with the snap of a finger . Let's just all stop this right now and make peace . After all , we are all fighting a losing battle . No one would get hurt except for us . Please , just stop .
I AM CRACKING . SAVE ME

Want to apologise to my squad for pangsehing them for the noticeboard stuff . Some people were not happy with me apparently . But oh well , goodluck to all of us for the proposals .
people always think that one is happy cause she looks happy , but hey , THINK AGAIN .

The trip to thailand was awesome , shopping's great . I get to sleep late wakeup late eat & shop . It was a lazy week but great nevertheless . I guess I needed a break from everything .


IM SICK < Damm the stupid haze. GOAWAYYYYYY .


BYE . i've decided to be a grumpy old toad >: {{