Somehow I don't know what to say again. again
It felt so weird ,
here
there
him
her
you
they

bet you didn't know
& still won't know

Merry christmas!

Time out ,
I need some alone time

C a n t w a i t f o r k o r e a !

Listen to me this once,

Hello so now I'm back to blogger? I don't really know actually it all depends on my mood I guess, sometimes I feel like going to lj and sometimes back to blogger. And to J I know you're reading this! So stop it!!!!!!! & johanna too! I don't know why I'm typing this down cause I know you guys probably won't care and continue reading. Lol.
I don't know what I'm feeling these days. it's driving me crazy and making me confuse ): Just a sudden bolt of sadness I suppose? I just really miss the old times I guess, I'm forever thinking about the past about my hibye friends. When those hibye friends really mean the world to me and now they seem so distant. It has even come to such an extant whereby I actually hate them for who they have become and for leaving me just like that. Aiya, why am I always rambling on about such stuff. I'm sure it irritates you, trust me I'm not only talking about weihua. Oh oh! The courage to finally type out his name! Hahaha. It has been what, N I N E months! Wow, that's damm fast isnt it? To you maybe but nevertheless, it's going to be a full 365 days soon! I mean I don't care about what you think now after what you've said. You really ought to look at yourself, and yeah word of advise? Don't make a promise you know you can never fufill. Yet, I ought to thank you for those short lived but nevertheless happy memories haha. I don't really care if she sees this or any of hercummy friends or even you or even those mindless gossips out there I mean it's my blog if you're so unhappy with what I'm writing, hey you have two choice, one you can go on straight to my face and tell me about it or two you can just never come my blog again.
Ahhhh, it feels great to rant everything I've been bottling up inside for so long even though I know I'll probably regret every single word that I've typed and just type out another sobsorry post again. It's a never ending cycle you see? Haha, but for now, that's it.

Byebye and goodnight! (:

I feel like a total loser

I feel like I don't have any friends, as untrue as it seems. I can't find someone I can really click with , someone I don't mind telling everything to, someone I can relate too.

I don't know it's like I always end up as the extra one somehow, be it in class or in stjohns.

Sometimes, it's like I'm always taken for granted. But whatever.

It's just a year more and I'm gone.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME {:

Whooooo, long time no seeeee!

Sometimes I wonder what are friends for& why is it my close friends always end up as strangers to me.

You know how much I love talking and whinning and complaining and how much I can't keep all my troubles within myself. I love being able to express myself openly with no constrictions or what so ever. But lately I find myself controlling every single thing I do. It's like I can't express my true self openly anymore? I don't know. I have to choose certain things to tell certain people and THAT SUCKS LIKE HELLLLL. I hate it but yet I have to do it to prevent ladeeda cause it concerns your friends ya ya ya & how I have to spare a thought for you bblahblah. & because of that, including the fact I hardly tell you anything anymore or rather even talk to you, we drift apart. SO MUCH! I miss you like hell but you don't. That hurts like shit. Oh man, shitty english, hahahaha. But still, I can't believe we've drift apart so much you know. You were really my gooooodest friend back then ): Oh well, at least it's better than being strangers. But I still miss you and I want the old you back even if they don't.


Okay enough ranting, I'm suppose to be happpppy! Happy happy happy me!

I feel happy ,
what about you?

{:

L Yes, FINALLY!
Audrey OMG AUDREY's CUTE FACE! can't get over it , hahahahahahaha
Zw hello hello hello hello hello again ^^
Gina You're welcome ^^ hahaha & THANKS MAN! YOU GO OUT WITH SOMEONE TODAY AR! AND IM STUCK AT HOME WITH NOTHING TO DO.
Debra AHHHHHHHH NOOOO<>
K Walau go away, dumb ass
Gina Hahahahaha, the ElMO clan!
Wanling EMOPIG GO DIEEEEE
Megan EMOPRINCESS GO DIEEEEE TOOOOO
Seemui Hahaha toilet partner! Let's go to the toilet and then to the arcade and let everything offff!
Sieg YALORXZ, you are so chio worx
Joey hahahhaha elmo is the best emo best friend you can have!
Debra 'Cause i roll roll roll untill rollingstones. hahahahahaha
Zw Helllllo again! ( nearing the tenth time! )
Eunice HELLO! (:
K Updated dumb

Okay, I'm in a super pissed off mood and I don't know prolly because I'm stuck at home with nothing to do and I hate that bye bye

RROLLINGSTONES FOR NOW

GINA AND I HAVE THE SAME SKIN (:
LURBEXXX WORSSS :)
XOXOXOXOXO!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY GUAN XIQUAN!
You're 18 & that's old. Haha



But you're still so cute worx!


Here's a brief post on the past few days

Friday
Combined games with GB



Watermelon fiesta!





& it was nice(:

Then it was graduation ceremony which wasn't very interesting, ended up nodding off to sleep.

Met SJ people and we went off to marina square to celebrate DOGGIE's birthday! :D Ate at Carl's JR with their unbelievably huge burgers then hopped on to Changing Appetite for their mudpies which was !

Saturday
Caught Mr Woodcock which was okay, wasn't very nice actually, furthermore the %$#^!(! at the back were so irritating I swear I felt like dumping my nachos over them! On the other hand, I absolutely loveeeeeeeeeee nachoooooooos! With ADDED CHEESE! :D Haha, thanks for accompanying me anyway, Gina's 5 minute best friend.

Sunday
was spent raising funds for May who is going to Nepal for volunter work. Sang with the parents and headed over to the bowling alley and ARCADEEE! I seemt to be visiting the arcade more now ^^ It really relieves stress man, hahaha. Singing with parents was entertaining. Well, entertaining is an understatement la. Couldn't stop laughing, now I know where I got my FANTASTIC singing genes from! Haha!


& It's confirmed, NO CHIANG RAI! Oh well, I'm starting to regret (AGAIN) but at least my mum says she is considering going to BANGKOK instead! :D YAY YAY YAY! Hahah, besides I can always go to NEPAL or AFRICA for such stuff if I want to in ten years to come! ^^

Not forgetting, SPEACIAL THANKS TO L (WHO REQUESTED FOR THIS) FOR RECOMMENDING ME A WALK TO REMEMBER CAUSING ME TO USE UP HALF A BOX OF TISSUE. THANK YOU SO MUCH AR FOR MAKING ME CRY. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! :E

Gina Mwahahahahahha, laughs back! EMOBLACK!
ZW Hello emoboy!(: Haha
L Wah, I feel like killing you already la. There's your post! Happy anot! :E
Wanling Welcome, anytime man ^^ DO YOU KNOW WHAT SONGS I LIKE!
Debra Haha, use it then! Eh you missed out something! PRETTY Nancy Drew(:
Megan Yupyup! THE NOTEBOOK is even better!
Johanna Hahah, soooooon!
L Wahhhhh, you damm naggy la!
Kw boo you! :D

For wanling



There's a song that's inside of my soul.
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold.
But you sing to me over and over and over again.

So, I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope.

Sing to me the song of the stars.
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again.
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again.

So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I know now, you're my only hope.

I give you my destiny.
I'm giving you all of me.
I want your symphony, singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs, I'm giving it back.

So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I pray, to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope.

hmmmmm, hmmmmm, oooooh.



Love you darling ♥

Hey, there's always more to life then you know.
I'm sure that your pleasant surprise is somewhere 'round the corner waiting for you, so don't be sad anymore okay! Smile more FATPIG^^

I ran out of eggs):
Screw you eggs!

Let's just say I'm feeling so much better {:

& I'm sorry Megan, I wouldn't be going to Chiangrai anymore.
I know I have been so fickle, changing my decision every single minute being a terrible irritant but I've finally decided. & no, I won't be going to Chiangrai.

I can't be selfish anymore.
All along I have been saying about how much Stjohn is holding me back. But I have never thought about how much I am holding them back. I have been such a self centered brat , I have never once considered the feeling of others. All along I have thought that I was the only one making sacrifices but holy mama I now realise how wrong I was. As such, there will be no more selfish me anymore! YAY! If you ever catch me being such a brat again, feel free to give me one tight slap across my face with in mind of the aftermath of course! ^^

Well, let's just hope that Mr Yeow actually saw my message and not ignore it! He have been really nice giving me so many days to think it over even though it was pretty clear he didn't want me to back out, but whatever! Haha


Okay, update again later!
I'm off to bake my cake! WHEEEEE :D

{:

So captivating , Haha!

Thanks Melvin , Gina , Germaine , BOOBLESSBIMBO!

i feel lost

i don't know how to react
i don't know what to do

i feel



empty.





why?

I've tried ,
really

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GERMAINE LEE YINGTING! ♥
You are officially FIFTTEEN which means we are one step closer to having babies. HAHAHA.WILL YOU STOP BEING SO RETARDED / Forever knocking into lamp post and falling on flat grounds! & I WILL NEVER STOP GOING TO YOU HOUSE TO MESS UP YOUR BED! :D Thats for going to the toilet to puke after receiving my message!!!

Heh, in other words, I LOVE YOU not?
:D

Thats how you look like whenever you get excited, only even worse.

AHHHH! Dont you just wish to have this! SPONGEBOB NIKE AIR DUNKS ! :DDDDDDDD




Germaine Lee .
Hello it's your time of the year!
No matter how cheesy you think this is, and I dont care if you are going to puke and land up in the hospital , I am still going to say this
I LUBBEXXX EUU. ^^
You've been a wonderfuuuulfantasticfabulous friend to me and everyone else.
Thanks for being there for me be it happy or sad {mostly sad, LOL }. Even though we've drifted apart, I know that at the end of the day we'll still be close friends wont we! :D

For you:



Anyway, today was KBOX with SQUADRON FOUR! :D


KangNing is like a old ah peh






Studying day the other day @ MAC









GINA IS MY CAMWHORING FRIEND :D





There's like so much more . . . . Haha



the lesbians


RONALD MACDONALD!





I LOVE STJOHN :D